It's not that I've decided to come back to blogging... I need a place to rant, just for a bit. Haha I doubt I'll be able to keep this up for long, considering I don't have internet connection at work, which sucks.
Christmas has just come and gone - Mummy's last Christmas party this Christmas just ended about an hour ago. She invited her friends over. This year's Christmas party on the 25th was quite unlike the rest. 'Hectic' is an understatement. I think it was because the grandaunties and uncles came late. Like, 5 hours late. Oh man. We either need a bigger house by next year, or better organisation. Although it was fun cos of the crowd and the festivity, it was also disappointing.. because of the crowd. Didn't get to spend as much time as I would have liked with the cousins cos we were so busy trying to divide out time among everyone, so that we get to talk to everyone. Poor Sammie and Charlotte were bored to the max man. And I feel so sorry for them, cos they were supposed to stay over and stuff. This brings me to the point of typing this entry in the first place.
I think I'm a terrible cousin. And an equally bad host. I feel so bloody guilty about leaving Sam and Charlotte alone for like the entire day. Seriously. Last time, when Rachel and Charlotte were younger, we used to find them irritating cos they always stay over and mummy gives them all her attention and stuff... it's a "older kids vs younger kids" thing. Now, they're all slowly growing up, especially Rachel. I wish we spent more time with them last time.It's like, now even if we wanted her to stay over, she doesnt want to anymore. Guess this is a period of time when we're all growing up and things are changing for all of us. For the rest of the cousins as well. Everyone's changing. It's like one moment we see them, and the next time we meet again, we're in for another surprise. In this case, if we're not as close, I guess it wouldnt affect me so much, since we're not close anyway. But we've played together since young, and now, little changes do have an impact on me. I also question my own position as a cousin. I dunno whether I'm reacting well to their changes or not, and I also dunno why I'm so affected. I'm afraid that one day we'll all lose touch with each other and not be close anymore. And that suddenly, they'll change so much that they won't like having me around anymore or something. I seem to be the only one so affected by change. They appear fine to me. Sigh. I hope that no matter what happens, we'll always be able to be natural around each other, and feel comfortable with each other, and that no matter how we turn out to be, we'll always be close.
Anyway, on to more positive things. What a way to start a blog.
I enjoyed midnight mass. We had a guest! haha. After that, rachel and gang went for prata with us.. at 2 something in the morning. In our nice dresses. Lol. Then we went home to open our presents!! At about 3.30am on Christmas day, I received a new phone! :) The pink Sony Ericsson. It was a nice surprise because I got the urban grey one about a month ago. I wanted the pink one but they didn't sell it in Singapore until only recently. and a pair of shoes, pants, tshirt and a bag. Brilliant. :)
Working life has been alright I guess. It could have been worse. It's been pretty mundane, but SGX's pretty cool, although I forgot to bring down my card just yesterday night and couldn't get out of the office. haha it's like an ez link card system. You need to tap the card to get into the building itself, and to get into your own department. You can't access other departments with the same card. I've been busy typing, filing (I dunno where they get so many papers to file from. they just keep coming), and sending emails and stuff. Can't wait for 6pm to come so I can zoom off. I become roadrunner at 6pm. beepbeep. Okay.. In ashley's words.. "not funny."
I think we're going out soon. But por por just came over, so I dunno if we're still going. Anyway, better get changed and hope for the best.
Merry Christmas everyone! :)
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