Been ages since I last blogged. So much has happened and I don't even know where to begin. Oh well, time to start talking to this pithole...
Yesterday night mS and I were driving to Meidi-Ya at Liang Court. At the U-turn into the carpark, this motorcycle came flying towards the car and before we all knew what happened, it had slammed right into the left rear door. Got such a shock.. mS was quite upset about it. Sigh.. I feel it was all my fault cause if he hadn't come to pick me up from home and I hadn't said I wanted to go to meidi-ya none of it would have happened. His parents came down. I felt so guilty I seriously didn't know how to face them. His dad went to him and they were examining the car.. I just stood there not knowing what to do or what to say. Can't explain how glad I was when his mum came and asked if we were okay. The nicer she was the worse I felt cause I really felt so bad the accident even had the chance to happen. She was so nice about it.. telling me not to worry but really the more she was being so nice the more I wanted to cry. Hated myself for even suggesting going there in the first place. I really wanted to say a million "I'm sorry"s but I think it'll only make matters worse for them. Felt more like an outsider than ever when his family came down, but his mum was really nice about everything.
After that the ambulance came, the traffic police came... Had to go down to Traffic Police at Ubi to make a police report cause there were injuries. I was so worried about the car, about mS, about the insurance or his dad having to pay and everything. Didn't know the consequences of what will happen, actually still don't know since they havent really investigated yet. I didn't even dare to call and tell mummy and daddy... just told them i'll be back late. So useless right. They even sent me home cos it was about 11pm already.
To mS, Uncle Ji and Auntie Ji,
I'M REALLY SORRY
Had steamboat at home tonight while watching the Olympics Closing Ceremony. China rocks.. It was really spectacular. I enjoyed the Opening Ceremony more though :)
Shall blog again soon I hope.. Going to sleep now!
Goodnight everybardy.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Everybody needs a little time away
I've heard her say
From each other
Even lovers need a holiday
Far away from each other
Hold me now
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry
I just want you to stay
And after all that you've been through
I will make it up to you
I promise you
And after all thats been said and done
You're just the part of me I can't let go
Couldn't stand to be kept away
Not for a day
From your body
Wouldn't want to be swept away
Far away from the one that I love
Hold me now
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry
I just want you to know
Hold me now
I really want to tell you I'm sorry
I could never let you go
And after all that we've been through
I will make it up to you
I promise you
And after all that's been said and done
You're just a part of me I can't let go
I can't let go.
Saturday, December 29, 2007
Post-Christmas
It's not that I've decided to come back to blogging... I need a place to rant, just for a bit. Haha I doubt I'll be able to keep this up for long, considering I don't have internet connection at work, which sucks.
Christmas has just come and gone - Mummy's last Christmas party this Christmas just ended about an hour ago. She invited her friends over. This year's Christmas party on the 25th was quite unlike the rest. 'Hectic' is an understatement. I think it was because the grandaunties and uncles came late. Like, 5 hours late. Oh man. We either need a bigger house by next year, or better organisation. Although it was fun cos of the crowd and the festivity, it was also disappointing.. because of the crowd. Didn't get to spend as much time as I would have liked with the cousins cos we were so busy trying to divide out time among everyone, so that we get to talk to everyone. Poor Sammie and Charlotte were bored to the max man. And I feel so sorry for them, cos they were supposed to stay over and stuff. This brings me to the point of typing this entry in the first place.
I think I'm a terrible cousin. And an equally bad host. I feel so bloody guilty about leaving Sam and Charlotte alone for like the entire day. Seriously. Last time, when Rachel and Charlotte were younger, we used to find them irritating cos they always stay over and mummy gives them all her attention and stuff... it's a "older kids vs younger kids" thing. Now, they're all slowly growing up, especially Rachel. I wish we spent more time with them last time.It's like, now even if we wanted her to stay over, she doesnt want to anymore. Guess this is a period of time when we're all growing up and things are changing for all of us. For the rest of the cousins as well. Everyone's changing. It's like one moment we see them, and the next time we meet again, we're in for another surprise. In this case, if we're not as close, I guess it wouldnt affect me so much, since we're not close anyway. But we've played together since young, and now, little changes do have an impact on me. I also question my own position as a cousin. I dunno whether I'm reacting well to their changes or not, and I also dunno why I'm so affected. I'm afraid that one day we'll all lose touch with each other and not be close anymore. And that suddenly, they'll change so much that they won't like having me around anymore or something. I seem to be the only one so affected by change. They appear fine to me. Sigh. I hope that no matter what happens, we'll always be able to be natural around each other, and feel comfortable with each other, and that no matter how we turn out to be, we'll always be close.
Anyway, on to more positive things. What a way to start a blog.
I enjoyed midnight mass. We had a guest! haha. After that, rachel and gang went for prata with us.. at 2 something in the morning. In our nice dresses. Lol. Then we went home to open our presents!! At about 3.30am on Christmas day, I received a new phone! :) The pink Sony Ericsson. It was a nice surprise because I got the urban grey one about a month ago. I wanted the pink one but they didn't sell it in Singapore until only recently. and a pair of shoes, pants, tshirt and a bag. Brilliant. :)
Working life has been alright I guess. It could have been worse. It's been pretty mundane, but SGX's pretty cool, although I forgot to bring down my card just yesterday night and couldn't get out of the office. haha it's like an ez link card system. You need to tap the card to get into the building itself, and to get into your own department. You can't access other departments with the same card. I've been busy typing, filing (I dunno where they get so many papers to file from. they just keep coming), and sending emails and stuff. Can't wait for 6pm to come so I can zoom off. I become roadrunner at 6pm. beepbeep. Okay.. In ashley's words.. "not funny."
I think we're going out soon. But por por just came over, so I dunno if we're still going. Anyway, better get changed and hope for the best.
Merry Christmas everyone! :)
Christmas has just come and gone - Mummy's last Christmas party this Christmas just ended about an hour ago. She invited her friends over. This year's Christmas party on the 25th was quite unlike the rest. 'Hectic' is an understatement. I think it was because the grandaunties and uncles came late. Like, 5 hours late. Oh man. We either need a bigger house by next year, or better organisation. Although it was fun cos of the crowd and the festivity, it was also disappointing.. because of the crowd. Didn't get to spend as much time as I would have liked with the cousins cos we were so busy trying to divide out time among everyone, so that we get to talk to everyone. Poor Sammie and Charlotte were bored to the max man. And I feel so sorry for them, cos they were supposed to stay over and stuff. This brings me to the point of typing this entry in the first place.
I think I'm a terrible cousin. And an equally bad host. I feel so bloody guilty about leaving Sam and Charlotte alone for like the entire day. Seriously. Last time, when Rachel and Charlotte were younger, we used to find them irritating cos they always stay over and mummy gives them all her attention and stuff... it's a "older kids vs younger kids" thing. Now, they're all slowly growing up, especially Rachel. I wish we spent more time with them last time.It's like, now even if we wanted her to stay over, she doesnt want to anymore. Guess this is a period of time when we're all growing up and things are changing for all of us. For the rest of the cousins as well. Everyone's changing. It's like one moment we see them, and the next time we meet again, we're in for another surprise. In this case, if we're not as close, I guess it wouldnt affect me so much, since we're not close anyway. But we've played together since young, and now, little changes do have an impact on me. I also question my own position as a cousin. I dunno whether I'm reacting well to their changes or not, and I also dunno why I'm so affected. I'm afraid that one day we'll all lose touch with each other and not be close anymore. And that suddenly, they'll change so much that they won't like having me around anymore or something. I seem to be the only one so affected by change. They appear fine to me. Sigh. I hope that no matter what happens, we'll always be able to be natural around each other, and feel comfortable with each other, and that no matter how we turn out to be, we'll always be close.
Anyway, on to more positive things. What a way to start a blog.
I enjoyed midnight mass. We had a guest! haha. After that, rachel and gang went for prata with us.. at 2 something in the morning. In our nice dresses. Lol. Then we went home to open our presents!! At about 3.30am on Christmas day, I received a new phone! :) The pink Sony Ericsson. It was a nice surprise because I got the urban grey one about a month ago. I wanted the pink one but they didn't sell it in Singapore until only recently. and a pair of shoes, pants, tshirt and a bag. Brilliant. :)
Working life has been alright I guess. It could have been worse. It's been pretty mundane, but SGX's pretty cool, although I forgot to bring down my card just yesterday night and couldn't get out of the office. haha it's like an ez link card system. You need to tap the card to get into the building itself, and to get into your own department. You can't access other departments with the same card. I've been busy typing, filing (I dunno where they get so many papers to file from. they just keep coming), and sending emails and stuff. Can't wait for 6pm to come so I can zoom off. I become roadrunner at 6pm. beepbeep. Okay.. In ashley's words.. "not funny."
I think we're going out soon. But por por just came over, so I dunno if we're still going. Anyway, better get changed and hope for the best.
Merry Christmas everyone! :)
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